Fire Seed of Water: Vaporization

11.6.7.20
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This is an active and social part of the alchemical process. You are the alchemical Fire in the Fire phase, so you must move heat, but be aware of your timing and amount.

In the right amount and rhythm fire and water can result in germination, followed by growth appearing above ground. This is a time of keen awareness and control of the collaboration you bring to water.

It must be in parts and mixed thoroughly. So you bring forward your heat, but always letting go, so your water can flow. This is not a time to be asleep to yourself and I have felt this alchemy in my day.

I am fully aware of the need to project forward my dreams and at the same time allowing water to form their body in a way that it can live.

I have listened to the dreamer, I have seen the dreaming, and I now allow myself to know, but not hold on too tight, as if it isn’t.

Dream, know, allow, flow.

Ether Seed of Air: Logos, The Word

11.5.10
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Ether Seed of Air is the caution of the integrity held within the word of manifestation. The sacred makes us aware and sensitive to the truth held within the light we each are, and the word is the motion of our thought into sound.

We cause the will of self to be purposed and the purposed is an alphabet of language that illustrates us.

After painting last night we were filled with our illustrated selves making the word our language of illumination. Our bodies folding into the lighted colors of the elemental beingness we are and the full meaning of what is imparted to our senses.

We were surrounded by the life of our dreams in our dreaming and we sank deep into our raptured repose.

To see and be in the presence of our work is to have your elemental awareness lighted to its full knowledge and this knowledge to write and illustrate your way through the naked structure of this world.

Air Seed of Earth: Squaring the Circle

11.4.10
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“”Squaring the Circle” is the mental alchemical process of transferring an airy concept from the mental plane to the physical dimension so that objective conception and birth become a demonstrative reality.” Dr. John Munford, “Magical Tattwas”.

There is a large void sitting in front of me, but I can’t seem to enter with the energy. All day Robert & I have been shifting with the energy so we can see the way to enter the completion of our December show, “The Coming of Fairies”.

Air Seed of Earth is a square with a circle inside. The circle being the idea and the square, the womb that nourishes the idea into life.

Inside the work of creativity is the solid alchemy of manifestation and the transformation of obstacles. Our work is about the movement of obstacles to the Dream. This is often deeply felt during the work and the obstacles to be removed, by the work, are felt and have to be traveled through, in order to create a map pattern within the seen work, that will free the viewer from this obstacle to his or her personal dream.

We often become very discouraged ourselves when moving through this and have to stay close to our own connection to the Divine to survive the coarse of resistance.

Our work is about creating a resource of maps and patterns that enable the individual who views the work to utilize and create from this resource permanently.

We finally went out for a late lunch at our favorite place and gathered the play and ease we have so much needed to begin to paint once again. Late in the evening we began to paint and I realize that if we aren’t given space to paint, we have little to share that deeply moves.

Happiness filled us both as we put the magic of the Divine onto paper and saw once again the full tapestry of our work embody space in this world.

This space our work embodies multiplies the power of the Dream. It is illuminated and alive.

Ether Seed of Air: Logos, The Word

11.3.10
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“A window of opportunity is opening, the chance for a fresh start. It is necessary to sense your heart, listen to your feelings from deep inside.” Dr. John Munford “Magical Tattwas”.

This is the third day inside this piece of the alchemical process. It is amazing to feel the subtle shifts within the process and the resettling of life as it learns to see differently.

I began early this morning, 4:30 am, with a new technique for seeing. It was easy and seemed very reasonable to do, but before it had seemed overwhelming and not reasonable. To begin anew is always such a miracle of differences.

Today I listened to the Word of my own hearing. A body of work I wrote and was given about eight years ago, and have recorded and published in paperback spiral bound. It was like new for me to listen to it again. The word sank deeper. I was more imprinted by its presence as what I needed to hear now.

“The Morrigan”, it’s about the owning of the property of the voice, the soul, the heart, and intention. As I listened I realized I was making, once again, a bid on the property of the atmosphere. It is the hardest property to own and there must be an auction up.

When one is trying to balance and own the life beyond stress, one is trying to own the property of atmosphere. It is ocean property and it is very expensive. It will take you close to your own insanity.

You don’t but it all at once but in layers and levels, but each time you do, you are stronger, more balanced, and when the concrete breaks and the buildings fall, you know you are not falling with them. You just pull up your roots and step aside.

This book has been invaluable to me over and over again. We have not published it yet, on Blurb, but you can hear it online. http://web.mac.com/thiscafe/Site/Podcast/Podcast.html


It is a journey of depth, transformation, underground travel, meditation, realizations, and companionship.

Ether Seed of Air: Logos, The Word

11.1.10

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“A successful change of heart, circumstances, place, or perspective is dependent upon paying attention to details and planning carefully.” Dr. John Munford, “Magical Tattwas”.

Allowing the detail to come is always what is necessary. You cannot go out looking for it. You ask what it is and allow it to come.

Years ago I worked hard on the detail of my life and I found it was not the detail that was hard, but the forcing of it that made it strenuous. This is a great task, because there is nothing to do except accepting it, and often everything else wants it now.

When moving our house around we wait for everything to know its place first, otherwise you have chaos and bumps on your head from hitting your head on a closed door. This time is kind of like that.

To let go is not enough, because something always must be made, and letting go is only a small step. To let go of what must be made is a great step, because you must know it has already been made.

While we waited for detail we watched the detail of the life of one of our favorite composers, Phillip Glass. Its a new film on his life, career, inspiration, and creative flow.

“Glass: Phillip Glass in 12 Parts”.

Fire Seed of Air: Perseverance

10.30.31.10

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The last two days have been fun, exhausting, creative, frustrating, overwhelming, and humorous. Sometimes, between our studio residence and our Rockland home, I feel gobbled up, totally consumed, and I don’t think I am enough for such hungry places.

Our house, which I love, needs so much up-keep and preparation for the changes of season, and our studio residence needs re-organizing to prepare for our show in December.

To rely on time is not enough. I feel I have multiplied my time and it just multiplies its needs. We are made to be part of our creative life on all levels, and this includes the mundane. The mundane is quite a hungry fish and the creative process needs it, but I feel it has become a whale of a tale.

My creative process has become too large in some areas and too small in others. I keep trying to trim up the fat parts, but they seem to be taking over. Is this where the dreams of the starving baby come from? I used to have this often, and have not had these dreams at all for many years. I don’t want to wait to have them again, so I’m asking my inner world, my soul, and guidance for help and understanding.

I also realize that too much creativity and not enough physical grounding activity is not good for me either. How do I create a balance between these worlds, needs, and feelings?

The realization of the question is always the beginning of the answer for me. Nameste.

Fire Seed of Ether: Transformation

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“Fire Seed of Ether (Space), this portends a beneficial change in your current situation.” Dr. John Munford, “Magical Tattwas”.

This is a time when the flame needs tending. Not too low and not too high. I often felt a void in this time and the sacred enfolds me, so I can hold the flame steady.

I am gathering the volume of process needed for the movement of deeper understanding in my life, and it has left me filled but not yet fully assimilated. To assimilate volume one must make room and time, and this making of room often for me creates a creative tension that does yield room.

I have to become keenly aware of my body and its surrounding environment. If I don’t I become more aware I will become ill and usually in the area of my body that needs to speak.

I have learned over the years and I have become aware faster and with more capability. Life is such an alchemical process that the fire of transmutation demands your attention and increasing acuity.

The season shifts , which is a huge pattern of transmutation, affects me profoundly and I must focus on the flow needed to breathe into it with comfort. To hear, to write, to feel the current enter and radiate down my mind into my understanding in words, and volume into writing is a currency that names its own price.

It is what I seek, but the price is cast and it requires a change in consciousness or perspective. It is as if someone tells you a secret or shares with you a new idea. To hear it you must pay the price of your ignorance and assimilate it and be affected by the new knowledge.

Living is about knowledge and the experience of knowing which has a price of expansion and expansion requires change.

You cannot lock the door to change as long as you live.

Fire Seed of Water: Vaporization

10.24.10
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“Fire Seed of Water, this is a time to progress through extroverted self-expression coupled with reaching out and engaging other people in a cooperative endeavor that suits your plans, but will be mutually beneficial to others.” Dr. John Munford, “Magical Tattwas”.

This day has been totally the communication of this alchemical fire in the fire phase and the acceptance has been on many levels of enthusiasm.

The fall is deep and brilliant today and we spent the day playing with our children and grand-children at Beth’s White Oak Farm. Hayrides, apple crisp, corn maze, hay pyramids, picking out pumpkins, and fresh vegetables. Little alchemists all making the most of the vaporization, creating a germination followed by sprouting.

I have felt the rise of aspiration as it meets with fire and water. We now have a car in place of our Jeep and it is such a surprise for both of us. We would never have had this boundless piece with surrender to the Aqua Vita of deep listening.

It is a 2001 Saab convertible, we wanted a small Saab that got good mileage and we asked it to make itself clear to us. It was the best and least expensive on the lot. What a fun little journey boat and Robert & I are still awakening to this gift.

It is a transformer and the grand-children love this. It transforms its shape to become more inspired by air. They call the healing decks they love to use in the morning, “The Transformers”. In this there is an alchemical transmutation that allows us to turn what “is” into a usable piece of what we now need.

So our Jeep transformed into a Saab and the Saab transforms into a convertible that allows more air, aspiration, in our movement’s travel. What fun it is to have an imagination about the serious of our lives. Afterall, we are from Sirius.

Ether Seed of Ether: Space, Rebirth

Celebrating our 100th entry!

10.22.23.10
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“Ether Seed of Ether, always forecasts an optimum period for dramatic shifts in regard to person, places, or things. The theme now is change, fresh starts, renewal, expansion of business, or personal pursuits, rebirth, travel, rejuvenation, & regeneration.” Dr. John Munford, “Magical Tattwas”.

This quote has been so forward today, and it has granted much in the way of comfort, as we move through many levels of change. Sometimes I feel I am not quite in touch with what is fully moving. I find myself grasping to reach something solid.

We are now in the last trimester of the earth’s peeling and the forming of her sides for birth is quite a force of energy to be within.

The circling of the moon is more noticeable to me than was before in my life. I feel the current of this time and rest is more difficult at times. I have had to make sure I take more time to meditate and stretch deep into this motion, so that I can stay balanced, but able to stand on one foot.

Sometimes I lose sight of the light and don’t even know that I am in a process of rebirth. I have had five children and know that there is some disorientation that happens during the birthing process, as the focus becomes narrower and narrower and everything else of life seems to disappear. 

You are alone with the full force of the moment. You are no longer a free spirit, but a part of this force and can only flow into its need. The need to birth what has become so willed that it will not remain silent any longer and must have a room of its own.

I feel our work has come to this space in my life, and I don’t quite know how to adjust to this child who needs its own space and all my attention. I am struggling to remain present somewhere else and no longer can. What is this child who wakes me in the night and will no longer settle for only part of me?

If I go completely into this new life I am afraid I will completely disappear and no longer be able to come home. I will be lost in the land of fay and never return. I am crowning and cannot return to unborn. There is much more under the veil than shopping for groceries, buying a car, and cleaning the basement.

While writing this, on the iPod a Laurie Anderson song came on from her Big Science album with lyrics that said: “You were born and so you are free,  So Happy Birthday.”

Earth Seed of Earth: Foundation

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The signal of Earth Seed of Earth is start. “We don’t need more strength or more ability, or greater opportunity. What we need is to use what we have.” Basil Walsh, From “Magical Tattwas”.

This time is somewhat overwhelming because there is so much new foundation being built and shifted over into that it seems almost as if there is no foundation at all.

Daily life has been so unroutined that the surface I walk on seems like water. There is a tide to this so sometimes it seems like stone, but not solid ground that I step on. I walk among the feelings and words of this time. I feel nurtured by the full expression of purpose as all shifts like castles in the air.

One moment the feeling of the whole, and the other the feeling of only the past. Much seems awakened to this motion and stillness combined. I take time to sit and hear.

There is much to know and this new space of float will require much more air to forgive the aloneness of this needed expression.

Robert & I move closer into each other as we mark this foundation with meaning. What is here is meant, and what is not here is meant. I realize that they are the same in will and purpose. Inside the full memory of full foundation is the beginning and it navigates its way towards us. 

The periwinkle now added to the bathroom floor in our Rockland home will allow more ease of flow and acceptance of the power of small. The change in the studio residence will bring forward more ease and awareness of the now present intensity of an out-pouring of intended grace. 

This grace has given me the easiest flow I have ever felt in communicating, asking, and feeling that is necessary to be in conversation with one’s world. I have asked each thing, each persona, each individual dweller, where it wants to be, and soon I have the answer. 

In this one needs to recognize the life and will in all things, and they will move themselves. Its kind of like in the Sword and the Stone, or Marry Poppins, when the magician asks everything to find its place and they do. Awesome fun.

More color is brought to the surface and the Intended Grace is portal entry made ready for the expression of the completion work for this year’s show, The Coming of Fairies, that we’ll hang December 1st at the Camden Library.