Air Seed of Air: Supernal Nurturer

8.17.10

“Air seed of air is Jacob’s two-way ladder, from above to below, to above.” Dr. John Munford, “Magical Tattwas”.

This is the part of the alchemical process that one stands alone on the mountain of decision ,and stretches in two directions with the wind in your face of the present.

For me, it is a time for seeing so much potential that has been created, but knowing the fruit is not quite ripe. When I was learning how to harvest dried flowers, I found each one was different. 

The straw flowers had to be cut before they opened, whereas the golden yarrow had to be cut after it not only opened, but after it opened completely. 

One needs to feel the stem and learn when it has become slightly woody, then cut and bundle to dry. If cut too soon the yarrow will fold in and no color shows. If the straw flower is cut too late it will turn inside out and fall apart.

Air seed of air is when you feel the air but must wait till you feel both nostrils clear. Hasty decisions, done by the push of delivery, is not good at this time.

Today I move slowly, but deliberately, waiting for the signal in both directions. We have worked inside a body of work now for 20 years, and the stage we now are in is the focus on the head. 

We must breathe with the contractions, but not force the head. It has its own timing, and its own presentation.

We must look at its beginning, and know it is right.

We must look at it now, and know it is right. 

This stretch enables it to step into the future just right, and be completely what it is. 

Tracing a surface of this time with the hand of my mind, I feel the power of this new pattern to be the wholeness of this stretch.

Air seed of air, a day with no goal outside of itself.

Earth Seed of Earth: Foundation

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8.16.10

“The artist and magician have the common problem of crystallizing, actualizing, and materializing their mental conception into the objective world of matter.” Dr. John Munford, “Magical Tattwas”.

Terra Firma is a secure foundation and I have used it in many ways to build the potential of my creative and personal life. When I had my five children I was the Terra Firma, and I built each life from seed to natural child birth, breast-feeding, and the life on a family farm. I built a cottage industry based on the Terra Firma of that farm , and once again started 12 acres of flowers from seed, to planting, to harvest, to design, and sold in stores across the country.

My life seems to always start from the seed and follow all the way to harvest and completion. This makes the process long, somewhat arduous, and much pioneering is needed, because the instructions are within the seed.

I always seem not to have formal training, or certificates for the endeavors, and I have to make up the how-tos, which is often lonely, scary, and empowering. In earth seed of earth, I have now realized that, even now as an artist, I am once again in the same space.As a healer, I am even more. 

We have made up our work, our listening, our hearing, and the full picture of a healing system that has written its own rules. It has its own definition, timing, and interpretation. I believe in it, because I feel it so deeply, I cannot recall any other way. It seems when I come around again and again, to earth seed of earth foundation, I begin once more from the seed, all the way to completion.

If you plant the seed yourself, you have the whole picture, because it is within the seed. You cannot then, though, hand it over to someone else. You must see it through, and it is you who knows the pattern from the seed. You imprinted it at planting. You are imprinted to the seed and the seed to you.

No one else has the certificate but you. This is what it is to be a pioneer in your own creative, spiritual world. 

So I wait. I listen for the seed to tell me more of what pattern is for, and how the intricate healing of the self is done, on the level of the body, our Terra Firma, foundation.

Air Seed of Fire: Mutual Harmony

8.12.10

"A shift from passion to compassion is required. Take time to contemplate in the temple of the heart atop the summit mountain of the diaphragm. Initial phase of introspective withdrawal will resolve a condition of beneficial settlement." Dr. John Munford, "Magical Tattwas".

Air seed of fire is about the mutual harmony that comes from  relationship of wholeness. A pure essence volume of what is part of our own fire and the occupying relationship it has with the very breath of our own inspiration.

This is the inner alchemy of presence in this world with the nectar of our own mind. To have our mind wrap around our thought and give permanence to our moving desire.

We have come to many points of reference in our lives, but seldom do we come to a volume of character within us that can create a new reality. The whole feeling of presence is held within a movement of pure clarity that has burned off the mist of indecision.

The pure essence of what is ferried across the mind of doubt to our mind of decision is the current of release that enables us to see the unknown.

I feel I am meeting up with the impossible and I’ll get lost in the fairiy land of its illusional potential. That is the way it is with the impossible, especially when you start believing in it. I am wringing out my mind and trying to become again more solid, but the spirit of matter has left its sensible resting place and now is adrift on the fairy boat with no oars.

I do not know how I will ever get home in my mind, and the peace I seek seems inseparable from my own dreaming.

I must find the bridge between the two, but I am afraid of the fairy boatman. Is he death or life, or just a limbo of lost?

I do believe in the power of pattern in my mind, but I can’t seem to bridge it to my feelings. I feel lost in my commitment and separated from my own peaceful future. I cannot seem to quit believing, but I cannot seem to bridge it to my own isness.

I am blind to this time, surrounded by its need of resolution.

Water Seed of Earth : Alliances

8.10.10

Water seed of earth is a time to procure a relationship with the deep waters of yourself, and the alliance is with your body, which is the chalice of the earth, that steps inside the rhythms of the tides.

To deeply take action, to become aware of this love between earth and water, is to be like a wave in your flow.

To breathe and take breath from the waters of this alliance is to become your own grail cup.

To initiate yourself is the attendance to your own body's deep magic.

To linger no longer in the door, but to step through to the awareness of how the body knows.

The body is the earth for your spirit, and it knows what the spirit knows. Trusting it is a whole integrity of love, and the language that speaks in the middle of everything.

Your body knows where you are going and when you will get there. The body never procrastinates, because it has no need to, it knows its own timing.

Life always questions the body, as if it is ignorant of itself, but it is life that is ignorant. The alliance of water seed of earth must start with the body, then it can move to other alliances which align with the body.

This way we will not need to delay, procrastinate, or miss the boat. We will instigate from a body that  is moving in its own time, the soul's time.

Today I have been quite, listening, and responsive, and flowing deeply with my body, her language, her needs, and I have made it a whole day. It takes a lot of time to have room for that in this world.

Nameste, from my body to yours.

Earth Seed of Fire: Potential

8.9.10

Earth Seed of Fire is about generating the energy for the foundation of an original pattern, idea, or vision, that can create a potential, that will hold the full emotion of what is now moving in the desire of one's life.

To desire is to fire the intention. To gestate within the earth is to call the full potential to calculate its full seed. The numbers, the formulas, the alchemy, comes out of this dance between earth and fire, as the potential is nursed, like the philosopher's stone, into its full emotion of gold.

In my life I have often gotten discouraged during this time, because the focus is so needed, as the building of the heat starts to generate a potential, that creates an even stronger and more expanded future, but also requires more courage, patience, and commitment in the now present.

In our work, there are so many levels of consciousness that must be activated and accelerated at once , that I become so influenced by the currency felt, that I lose sight of the quiet repose of the process, as one step follows another.

As each phase is received, occupied, and fully integrated, the next easily moves into place. This is how the deep healing happens. This is how the deep mystery reveals itself. This is how a deep resolve is made present, and the mind is made calm.

Earth Seed of Fire, the potential is made ready. The processing is prepared for its full repose. I can rest my mind inside this potency.

Ether Seed of Water: Daring

8.8.10

Today, a day of daring, coming forth as rest, recalculation, and shifting our environment. Most of this day was allowing myself time to feel deeply what it is I am longing for with the greatest volume.

What is it that creates an ache that multiplies itself into a thousand little waves of pain. I have had to pursue the pure chemistry of myself today, as I rested and implored the very nature of what I am truly pursuing.

Robert & I both are beginning together, on a whole new level, and are allowing our minds,bodies, and environment to be equipped for the next level of our work. We rested, did body work on each other, walked, and sat by the river. We then began to see our environment start to shift.

There was now a need for an opening and this will give us the lift and room we need to begin. Much has been gathered, prepared, imagined, and imaged, so now the building begins.

Dare to be ready. Dare to change. Dare to move, without knowing where. Dare to see the beginning and the end, before the middle, and still begin.

Make up a language. Make up a reason. Make up a cause. Make up a need. Make up a story. Make up a great work. Make up an importance. Make up a way. Make up a formula and follow it to the end.

I feel my life is all made up, and I think I'll dare to make up some more. Ether Seed of Water.